Feb 8th 2020
Welcome back! Its been a while since I last wrote in here, but a lot has happened ever since. On Dec 6th 2019 I received what may’ve been the worst news of my life when I was told my mother passed away. That moment, I was hit with such a punch in the mouth that everything felts stalled and in slow motion. Immediately my focus was solely on my mother and organizing the arrangements for her homegoing. I spoke with Omar the next day and told him the news. Omar immediately shifted from mentor to friend and provided me with the support, encouragement and strength to get through the tough path that I was walking through. I needed that and I needed his support and his understanding was beyond appreciative and I will never forget it. Needless to say, I had to pause for a while from the process to focus on not only my mother’s homegoing but recollecting myself as well.
I started 2020 off with the notion that everything that I do, artistically, will be dedicated to my mother Val Profit and all I could think about at the start of the new year was “What would Valerie say to you right now?” I was able to answer that question with confidence and ease when I say, “She would tell you to pick yourself up, dust yourself off, take a deep breath, move forward and continue to kick ass!” Her endless fortitude when it comes to perseverance was a trait that I always admired about her, and I feel like I can hear telling me to keep going and keep fighting and that’s the only mindset that I have right now. After the beginning of the year, I was ready to get back on track and be ready to attack.
Omar and I spent the heavy part of Jan going thru and working on the script outline. Me personally, I never followed any sort of traditional guidelines when it came to my previous script outlines. In fact, my previous script outlines were like the type of classroom notes you would see detailing the inner workings of rocket science.
I believe Omar got a sense of what I was talking about when I showed him some of my notes for Dawn and was like, “Ummmm ok, let’s simplify this”. I don’t blame you at all O, this would’ve drove me mad too seeing this hahaha
Once I was able to get a better grip and understand of a cleaner format, MAN was it refreshing! It was one of those moments where you’re struggling with practice and when you are shown another way going about the practice, getting the hang of it and applying it, you feel like you don’t want it to ever stop. After that, the script outline was much smoother.
I turned the outline in and just waiting to speak with Omar about the details. I can tell you with full confidence that I’m excited about writing this script and above all, I’m certain my mother watching down on me is enjoying watching this process unfold before us as well. Be with us all mama.